My personal concerns of release

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MISC writings wrapping up 2015

My major concerns upon being released and or enduring long incarceration.

*$8k in debt, with a horrible credit score
*no car
*will be homeless
*no shelter can take me
*cannot work
*lack of friends
*cannot fall back on parents
*more health issues
*probation restrictions
*may have to take classes
*a ruined resume

The cherry on top, is simply loosing x number of years of my life!

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