1/31/16 Dear Mom

Hey mom how are you? How's life? Sorry I've had to bother you so much on the phone these days it is my only option since dad has not deposited money on my account for me yet. So yeah, I wish we could sit and chat, but you are always annoyed with me and/or holding Ava.   Here are the things? I will have a discussion with Lori in regards to setting up a reconsideration hearing and also just vent and ask questions. If judge Irby could just shave off one year of active time that would be awesome.

 Consider my safety. I am not safe. About every month, I am at risk or I am threatened, or drama and now I am here in admin segregation. But I doubt prison has admin segregation.

 Consider that judge didn't even read the letters friends & family wrote to judge. She also only spoke of the PSI packet and not the 300 evaluation. Did she even read that? Consider my medical issues. She didn't even acknowledge them.

 Even the prosecutor didn't know what he was talking about when he spoke of milf and cougar porn, he said "I think it's where actors pretend to be younger than they are" LMAO no!! The women are supposed to be obviously older between 30 and 60 years old. The men are typically college ages. I wonder if his statement affected Irby's decision.

 If denied time off my sentence, I want to ask her to consider any alternative to jail time, such as detention diversion, GPS trustee work release or consider mental hospital.

 I want her to let me work on my fines which are at nearly $5000. I want to work on this new debt while serving time and not have to pay $47 a month starting in 2020! These fines I want to dispute.

 I don't think it's fair or "just" that she made this case personal. She made sure to be the one who sentenced me and punish me. Despite all the facts, she was going to give me a high sentence regardless.. Not fair! I deserve a fair hearing!

Oh please thank Jon for coming to court. And thank you too of course. What else, I'm having a brain fart. Thank you for relaying messages and thank you and sorry for everything. Is my stuff in the storage gonna be OK? I wonder what dad will do to my car. On the bright side I hope financially my life can kind of be reset by the time I get out. Dad said he'll put away $25 each month for me. If I can get a job in prison, I'd like to use that money to pay off all my debts against my credit score which are about $2000 and/or my court fees $5000 but I will dispute them. Another option is to have money to buy a car when I get out since dad will probably sell mine for scraps now.  It would be so nice if coming out of here I could have all my debts paid, credit restored, my own place, a "prison body" from working out and money for another used car. I could live happily ever after. It's the exact kind of refreshment my life needs. If these are the kind of rewards waiting for me at the finish line then 3 and a 1/2 years might be worth it. If only my body can hang on. I'm so worried of inmate drama. How does  does Erik talk or explain his charges? 

 Can you and dad share or exchange these letters I can't write 2 of the same letters each time. 

 Gosh I miss everyone! I wish you all knew how much. Especially Shannon. I miss her more than freedom itself. I wish I could tell Tina how thankful I am for her and her  letter. Did dad save his letter? I would love to see what he wrote.

 Doing some rough calculations of my time given, I would have 42 months or 1320 days which is 178 weeks. October 2017 should be the halfway point. I'll have to miss 3 or more Halloween's, 3 New Year's Eve's, I will be 35 and it will be summer by the time I will be released. I think July or June of 2019. Ya'll better be alive and well upon my release

  My hand is cramping. I must go. I have been writing for 5 or 6 hours now. Very bored. Please send me more gamelist. I need Sega CD, game gear, Sega Saturn, dreamcast, 32X, super nintendo, Sega Genesis, turbo-graffix, atari jaguar, gameboy, gamecube, xbox and playstation 2. Remember just type in Google "list of games for (name of console)", and a wiki list should pop up.

 Thanks mom! talk to you later. love ya! miss you!

 love mark.